Wow, this thing is still active!

i can't believe it!  well i think i've got one of those "i-had-this-for-breakfast" blogs....only by not using this site for months at a time it doesn't even qualify for that.  the CAT demanded to be on my lap while typing this...he seems interested.  i guess i'll continue for his benefit.

so...let's see.  i guess i can start with an actual introduction.  i'm zen, gal in her 30's (please...i don't want to be a full grown WOMAN...whaaa!!), and reasonably dissatisfied with my life.  in a way that seems selfish and wrong b/c i have a relatively easy life.  i'm a graduate student and if i could concentrate on writing my dissertation i might actually graduate in 3 or 4 months.  i am engaged to a very good man who frankly brings logic into my life....and i'd be hurting pretty badly financially if he didn't allow me to shack up with him.  i guess i'm having a bit of an early mid-life crisis because i don't know what i want in life and wish it could be more fulfilling.  so, i have a lot of work to do on developing my 'self'.

that said,  i have started on one venture that might bring me closer to my goal of attaining better health.  i started Weight Watchers online about a week ago.  i am starting at my heaviest weight ever...200 lbs (199.8 to be exact).  it might not be exactly a 'fair' week for that female 'reason' but as long as i log a loss on Sunday me be real happy.  my ultimate goal is to get back down to 140 pounds...but i will be happy between 140-150 lbs.

i have not, however, started on my exercise goals.  man, it is so tough to start when it is frickin' COLD outside!  i want to start running again.  i used to be a consistent runner and was at my healthiest weight and mindset when i was in that mode.  but it has been YEARS since i've run [consistently].  i saw on the WW site reference to the C25K plan through coolrunnings.com so i will try to follow that.

i guess that is it for this post.  a little whine and a little goal announcement.